2008. a year of one we would like to forget. I know I know, it was also a year of great and wonderful things. Big daddy and I were married and shortly after a hard pregnancy on mama b, a beautiful daughter was blessed to us (hopefully one more will be given to us in the near future, but more easier on mama b.) but after that, well its been nothing but hard times, grief, loss and stress.
This year has been rough. If bad luck came in droves in your life and it shortly becomes a country song, then my friends, we have joined you. In order this is the luck we have experienced.
1) having a much more bigger wedding than planned or expected, causing it to bite a HUGE chuck into safety net, secret honeymoon surprise for my husband, family vacation to Disneyland or Texas, and going into HUGE debt or just putting some down on a house.
2) We lost our puppy Maggie, didn't have the funds (see reason 1) to pay to help her but barely had enough to spare her pain, put her to sleep while she died peacefully in my arms
3)Had to step down from managerial position (job relocation )earlier than expected and causing more financial strife to family, only plus side to this is that we are much more closer to snickerdoodle.
4.) Went through extra squirreled nest egg to support family while on maternity leave only to not have enough to bail us out when the bill collectors came and when snickerdoodle's father insisted on raising his want of more money in child support (he's suffering as well, 3 houses, 3 cars, and much more stable than my new family but none the less its for my eldest) but jumped through hoops to get it lower so we can still have money to support our youngest.
5.) Had to change providers for chunky monkey since her only way of being comforted by her provider was to stuff yet another bottle in her mouth, always came home spitting up her extra bottles fed to her, being in discomfort.end result, a higher much better level of care but at a much more higher cost.
6.) I lost both my Grandmother and Grandfather J. within a month of each other, being financially strapped we couldn't join my family in Texas to be with them. On top of that, they never got to hold and meet the newest addition, just what they seen in pictures. Oh lets add, I missed the phone call and text message from my father to call my grandfather before he passed away an hour later due to crummy phone reception.
7.Having to wonder if the next 20 bucks will be spent on gas or food, to know we go a night without eating to save our food or we just don't have much to eat, to know that my husband has lost 15+ pounds not because of dieting but because we can't afford to go grocery shopping. When we are torn between paying utility bills or buy food for us, the girls are always taken care of.
8.)Chunky Monkeys health is not the best with having allergies, a chest cold that hasn't go away, a bout of pneumonia and a ear infection, we barely have enough to cover her doctors visit and medicine, lets ignore that hospital bill that has yet to be paid.
9.)The fact that I rarely see my husband because he's working hard to provide for the family with 2 jobs (trying to find a 3rd), and myself working on rubbing two pennies together to stretch the funds to the best of our ability to pay off our debts, provide for the family, feed the family and just basically live.
10)Christmas?!?! HAH...
I know each new family have a hard first year together, and I know there are other families out there that have it much more worse than we. I do pray each day, despite my anti-religious husband, for more faith, strength, guidance and help. even when things are very tough I haven't given up. With my husbands help and love,I do look for new ways to help out our family. We have learned, struggled and grew strong through this, but we are exhausted and the end is not near but hey...it will get better it will be better..one day.
However, did I mention..2008..you can keep it. 2009, I'm hoping you're better if not...do your worst, because 2008 kicked us down to our knees. You might as well kick us while we're down but we're not going down without a fight.
Edit to add from Big Daddy: Let's not forget my back problems and chiropractor visits or my wisdom teeth removal. I've in the past disparaged those who allow stress to manifest as physical ailments but lately between too much work, family stress, health issues, and the ever looming financial issues I've experienced it firsthand. This year had its bright spots but ultimately sucked eggs. 2009, you can't come soon enough.
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